random stuff. so...i really don't know what to say. i guess there's nothing exactly that i can say that will cause anything in particular to happen. that's not how people really work. i need sleep. i have a feeling that most people i know have a pretty good idea of what it is that they want to do, be it as simple as something good and selfless or something good and selfish. people often say they don't know what they want to do, because there comes a point when people realize that it's actually much more difficult to pursue what it is that they want to do over just doing something else that is much easier to do but unfortunately puts whatever it is that they wanted to do on hold and potentially on hold forever.